weee

i’m just so happy. its been 2 days straight and we haven’t had a fight yet. its a goddamn record i tell you! weeeeeee!!

i’ve decided to abandon writing the book. there’s just so many things in our past that up to know hurts me when i think about it. so, there. to spare me from tears from the past that i cannot accept, i’m just not gonna write the book. and i’m happy about it. it means i got more time finishing a big work of art i’m creating. weeee!

so what if i have big eye bags because of crying over silly things and not having to sleep all night? at least i’m smiling now. ^_^

i love being happy. i wish i have the power to make everyone happy. and the power to banish loneliness and hate.

i need a great deal of luck

I’m writing my first book. It’s about my life, his life, and our life when we met each other.

It’s a friggin’ love story full of sarcasm and bad beginnings.

It’s kinda funny too, and i hope i’ll be able to write down how much my life is like a freakin’ circus.

And its gonna be my gift for him for our 2nd anniversary. Sweet. Haha. 

quiet poetic

We’re caught up in our little world

“hush now” she says

“darling, no need for words”

slow as we flow coz tonight it’s gonna be easy

slow as we go coz tonight we’re gonna be free

real loving, real loving

real loving she gives to me

real loving…

quiet poetic, her body breaks into rhyme

quiet poetic, her moves says it all.

Lit candles glow in your eyes

we elevate, reached higher plains in our minds

sensual the tides of love could bring

breaking waves in our hearts we sing

she don’t need to say a thing to me

her actions show

as i try to give her all the same…

quiet poetic, her body breaks into rhyme

quiet poetic, her tongue is her mind

quiet poetic, she speaks through her eyes

quiet poetic, her moves says it all. 

-urbandub 

dreams

i really i had a weird dream last night. i don’t even know why i dreamed of him. i haven’t thought of him for almost a year now, and yet here he comes, invading my slumber land.

he was my “highschool sweetheart” well, sort of. we had a thing going on during our highschool days, but it was never something official. he had a girlfriend, i had a boyfriend. we were just more than friends, but less than lovers. but if time would allow it, and if the people around us will too, i used to think that we would have made it. but after a few incidents that happened that i was not too happy about, i abandoned the fact that something really special about us would have happened and i tried to forget all about him altogether.

but last night, i dreamt that we were together, and we were having so much fun. we ate together, talked about our lives, we held hands again, like we were back in highschool. it was really weird because in reality i was really mad at him, but in my dream , its as if nothing bad has happened between the two of us.

i dunno. i don’t miss him. i don’t think about him. and i definitely don’t love him.

that dream totally blew me off and had me thinking for hours. i always think that dreams have hidden meanings. i just don’t get what this one is keeping from me.