another one of those days
September 7, 2006its days like this that i realize how sad my life is.
its not boring. its not pathetic. its just SAD.
its the feeling when you’re with someone, but you feel all alone. you want to talk but you don’t know what to say. its like watching a sad movie in the middle of a rainy day. its like a rainy day without someone to hug but a pillow. its like wanting to cry but there’s no more tears left. its like wanting to die but still struggling hard to survive.
its days like this that i feel like going on a road trip. the fresh air. my hair dancing in the wind.a time to reflect. a time to re-discover what really matters. a time to search for happiness. a time to search for contentment. a time to talk to myself.
is this what i want? am i content? what do i want? what do i need?
i try to smile. i try to laugh. i try and try to be happy. i want to be happy. but i feel that i am trapped in a desolate life. is there any way out?
i need my DRUG…
17 irksome years and counting. frustrated guitarist. former vocalist. procrastinator. sarcasm jar. master crammer. sadistic. angst-ridden. bookworm. music lover. mischievous. naughty. professional liar. digital arts and design student. mapuan never a malayan. loves spongebob. ely buendia. brandon boyd. ice cream. isaw. cappucino. coffee experience. marlboro lights. bananas. and the word banana itself. hates backstabbers. perverts. loves listening to opm. walang kamatayang eraserheads. spongecola. urbandub. sugarfree. sandwich. kamikazee. parokya ni edgar. i. am. taken.
peace!
