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November 20, 2006

its hard to define what i’m feeling.

i’m happy.

and sad at the same time.

i don’t know what feeling feels more.

i don’t even know why i’m happy.

nor why i’m sad.

this is a very complicated emotion. i don’t even know if i’ve used the right words. and what’s worst is, i don’t know how to comfort myself, or even if i need any comfort.

and then i ask myself so many questions.

and because of this, i can no longer concentrate on what i’m doing. i am no longer myself these days. i feel like i’ve changed quite a lot. i don’t know if i like what’s happening. sometimes i feel bothered, sometimes i don’t.

i no longer understand myself.

P.S. this post is such a waste of time. 

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