major pain

i felt so happy since classes were no longer suspended yesterday. but it was short lived because they just announced that we have 2 weeks left until vacation.

by this time, i think its time for me to panic.

we still have to reshoot our suspense flick (i hope to finish this today) and i still have to buy after-effects installer and get the plug-ins from my professor AND edit the goddamn flick. AND we still have to shoot our comedy/action/comedy-action flick. AND edit it again. then for the final project is our very own AWESOME movie. we have to pass this by next week. tell me one good reason why i shouldn’t panic.

that’s for just one subject. here’s more. for our digital photography class - i still am 3 weeks behind the photo assignments. my boyfriend borrowed my camera since he needs it, so i let him borrow it and only realized this morning how really far behind i am and i really need that camera!

for our animation class, our prof is kind enough to only require us a flipbook for our final project. but i can’t still finish it because he took the cards to check our progress. stupid him. urrgh.. panic!!!

and for our english class, we had our impromtu speech yesterday. (the topic i got was about which book would be the coolest for me - and i answered everything is illuminated by jonathan safran foer. read it for yourself.) and we’ll be having extemporanious speech next meeting, and i’m working on a speech on my choosen topic (why christians fear witches) and will deliver it (have to memorize the damn thing, not even allowed to read) by next week.

when i get to finish all of this, i have to get an AWARD. a grade of 1 would be nice.

that does it!

they suspended classes, yet again because of a threat of a military coup. that really fucking does it.

since i get to visit my niece and nephew yesterday, i didn’t give it much thought. but since they’re not here with me anymore, it just hit me today.

fuck you gma, you should fucking step down you bitch! the last thing the philippines need is another fucking dictator!

i used to think that gma was our last hope and that we should not force her to step down and just give her a break! politics will always be dirty. the government will always be corrupt. but why do we filipinos have to go to the streets whenever we see a hint of wrong in them? naiinis ako sa mga rallyistang hindi naman nila alam kung ano ang ipinaglalaban nila. bakit nila pababain si gloria kung wala namang matinong ipapalit sa kanya?

but since the proclamation 1017, fuck it. she needs to stop this. people don’t want to relive the martial law days.

history indeed repeats itself. that’s why we should learn from our past mistakes! why did gma do this? i found only one answer - since she doesn’t want to step down, and she is fully aware that majority of the people doesn’t want her to be their president anymore, she’s left with one solution - TO RULE BY FORCE.

what is happening to our country? *sigh* 

16 MONTHS 

there’s another reason why i’m so goddamn pissed today. i was really looking forward to spending this day because of one thing - we’re celebrating our 16 month together. this fucking really means alot to me caused we recently had a huge fight that almost led to a permanent breakup! i really want to see him today and just spend some friggin’ time with him on our 16 month anniversary! my parents won’t allow me to go out because hell might break loose on the streets!

damn you, gma. damn you. 

SCHOOL WORK 

oh yes, i found another reason why i’m so fucking angry right now.

school work! yes, goddamn school work! summer vacation is almost here and i still have to re-shoot a suspense flick, a comedy flick, and an action flick. finish my flipbook. finish my goddamn photo assignments. make a speech. deliver the friggin’ speech.

how the hell am i supposed to get this done if i can’t go out because of those damn selfish, stupid genuises?! they keep saying that education should be the top priority - top priority my ass! suspended naman ang class! imbes na magaral kami at paglaki namin tulungan tong bwiset na bansa na to, stack up kami dito sa bahay at nanonood ng telebisyon na puro violence at corruption ang pinakapakita! putangina niyo.

what makes my day…

a military coup will never ever ruin my weekend if i get to see my niece and my nephew.

so adorable.

and since my dad bought me a new camera, i get to take pictures of them all i want till i ran out of batteries.
and since i’m to lazy to upload, i can’t share their wonderful smiles to you yet.

but no camera can ever share to you the amount of happiness they give to me.

they remind me that no matter how much wrong is going on in the country right now, smiles and laughter can somehow make you forget.

hmmm…

Tim Leary said as he was dying that he was looking forward to the moment when his
body was dead but his brain was still alive. You know they say that there’s still six to twelve minutes of brain activity after everything else is shutdown. And a second of dream consciousness, right, well, that’s infinitely longer than a waking second. You know what I’m saying?

For example, I wake up and it is 10:12, and then I go back to sleep and I have those
long, intricate, beautiful dreams that seem to last for hours, and then I wake up and it’s… 10:13.

So then six to twelve minutes of brain activity, I mean, that could be your whole life.

no classes

i woke up today with a sore throat. blah. i hate it when this happens to me.

i didn’t even sleep properly last night. good thing walang pasok ngayon.

NYAK!

good thing daw!

bwiset na yan. hindi na ba nila titigilan yang rally para bumaba si gloria?

punyemas. gusto ko na mag-flash eh! gagawa na kami website ngayon sa flash, tapos ngayon pa walang pasok?! oh the irony! minsan na nga lang ako excited pumasok, wala pa. pft.

anyway, i’m really not in the mood to talk about politics. heck, i really loathe politics and all the dirt that comes with it, so its better not to talk about it, right?